And a lot has gone down.
I could inform you of all the fun and exciting things I've partook/partaken (these aren't real words?) in. But something bigger has all my attention.
It's taboo. It's not things you're supposed to banter over at a trendy coffe shop. But we did.
Bisexuality. What an interesting concept.
Now I accompanied one of my close guy friends to above mentioned coffe hut and all was revealed. We discussed religion, the universe, how the world would end, contemporary & controversial social issues of today. And sexuality.
How do you react to that? Someone you've known for a significant amount of time hiding something so key to their identity. As much as it shouldn't affect our friendship, it will. It puts the puzzle pieces together and justifies questions that have gone unsaid. And explains actions that have and haven't taken place.
I mean I still love him as a person: we're great friends. And I smiled and said it made sense and it doesn't change our friendship. But deep down, the B has always been more unspoken in LGBT. Especially for men.
But what does it mean to be bisexual? Are you attracted to women and men the same? Which side do you tend to prefer more? These are questions even I didn't feel comfortable asking.
Does your girlfriend know?
How would that type of situation affect your relationship with her? These are two of my closest friends, I have to tell her... But putting myself in her footsteps, how do you move on from such a blow?
It's not his fault, or his choice, and he didn't do anything wrong. And it ISN'T wrong.It just happens.
But wouldn't that make you feel like less of a woman? Knowing that your boyfriend won't always be satisfied by you, because you physically can't. And maybe he wouldn't always desire you. Isn't that a scary thought?
And I don't know how it works. Is it like a teeter-totter? Being sexually attracted to either just guys or just girls on certain days? Is there really a middle ground?
Now I love gay people, can I say it like that? I have so many gay friends that mean the world to me. But if my boyfriend was bi, is that too close to home? I mean I would accept him and I still like him. But you can't help those doubts.
And it wouldn't be doubts about him or his faithfulness to you. It'd be about me. What if he wasn't interested in me? It'd be my fault, or is it one of those situations where you can't place blame?
Would she always be competing? It sounds suspicious and awful, but how do you handle that? You're trying to keep his attention away from not just ladies but all the guys too. Sounds impossible.
I'm so glad I don't have to worry about it.
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